Understand

IntroF#mGirl, I hope you understand
I wDanted to hold your hand
But I cAan't, wanted to be your man back tC#7hen
And F#myou knew I fell for you but yDou
Just broke my heart in two
I was sAad, mad and broken on my bed
HC#7oping I get rid of all the voices in my headVerseI was oF#mpening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was mDet with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I wAoke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I said , "I sC#7wear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
So insF#mtead I took my pen and started writing evidence
And when I stDarted making sense
I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upsAet, I have no friends
You wanna bet you're just pretend?
You're just a C#7pet confined within the lines of writing
You're not ****
I thF#mought I stopped my psychopathic wDays, I swear I did
I said I tAalked to people 'bout the problemEatic life I lC#7ived
They were my nF#meighbors,
razor blades
And different flaDvored pills I hate
Therefore I'm nAot sure, leave my last straw
I'm so C#7glad, stuck in the past, I said that ChorusF#mGirl, I hope you understand
I waDnted to hold your hand
But I caAn't, wanted to be your man back thEen.C#7....
And F#mso far I never held you with my aDrms
So it's hard to be the one you wAant
With instead filled with anxiety
EAlways was a part of me, gC#7uess I'm not cut out to beVerseSomeF#mbody 'cause it's not me
I'm not used to all the talk, was an inDtrovert
That had converted feelings in the writing
Used to cAope with all my problems
Using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to C#7hope for better days whenever
That's 'bout make me crying
I'm not lF#mying when I say that I would rather die than go back
To the tiDmes I would try be the guy the people know
I was fiAghting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids
On an iC#7sland full of violence in my head that I could pilot
F#mOh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gDray
I feel it coursing through my veAins
I said before I'm not oEkay
But you don't lC#7isten anyF#mway
You know I tried, you turned aDway
Straight up lied right to my fAace
You ****** my life, ruined my dEay
But you don't kC#7now, so I'll say BridgeF#mNothing can fill this sileDnce, no one can love like I dAid
(oh you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's Eno fair, you sC#7till deny it
(So I'll say)
F#mNothing can fill this sileDnce, no one can love like I dAid
(And you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's nEo fair, you sC#7till deny it
(So I'll say)ChorusF#mGirl, I hope you understand
I wDanted to hold your hand
But I caAn't, wanted to be your man back tEhen.C#7....
AndF#m too bad I know I can't wake up
Because I loDst my way and you don't give a ****
About mAe, this could be a dream, I can't sEee
The things that you C#7see, so please, oh
F#mGirl, I hope you understand
I wDanted to hold your hand
But I cAan't, wanted to be your man back tC#7hen
And F#myou know I played along
You wDere my home, I wrote you songs
And now you're deAad to me
effectively
ReC#7moved yourself outside my dream.F#m....